I’ve put off writing as if not putting the words out here would change what is happening.

I still believe that my disease was in a state of remission, and I do believe that I will achieve it again. When I saw my rheumatologist back in September I had no symptoms of my disease and my inflammation markers were normal. I had experienced no pain since July and didn’t start having any symptoms until the middle of October. My doctor said remission could be months or could last for years. And I said that I would ride this wave as long as I could.

I have been trying to ignore the signs but as they increase it’s become difficult.

Maybe my body held out through all the stress of bringing my oldest daughter home from Colorado, my son going to boot camp, and my youngest daughter starting high school and now it’s at a point where it can’t do it anymore.

I need to see the positives as doing anything else would take me down a rabbit hole that I have no intention of going down.

A huge positive is that I’ve started a new job which I firmly believe is a gift. Being in a place of health and fitness where I can encourage others is my heart and passion. I’m grateful every day for this opportunity.

Even though it’s painful to walk right now I’m thankful that I have legs to do so. Even though my hands are swollen, and small every day tasks hurt I’m grateful that I can still grab the weights after work, push through a workout, and get a little reprieve from the pain when I’m done. Even though the fatigue is draining, I am energized at work and know that I can make a difference to others who suffer more than I do.

I need to remember that I must listen to my body and rest when I need to.

So for now I am waiting for our insurance to approve the next therapy and I’ll begin taking meds to slow down the disease progression.

This is just a bump in the road. #makeitcount #rasucks #rheumatoidarthritis

6 thoughts on “Bump in the road

  1. You are a very strong woman and already combat hardened to the highs and lows of this illness. I believe that as you continue to face forward and move on that you will prevail. Much love, sis

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  2. You are in my prayers everyday. I admire your courage and your strength as well as your positive attitude. Seize the day. Stay strong in your commitment to improve others as well as yourself on your journey. Put your trust in God to see you through. His suffering was so much beyond ours. We love you.

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  3. Prayers girl. . .Sounds like you had a lot going on and your body and mind said I need a little break. . the fall and winder months seem to also bring out the worst in some of us. . .Hang in there. .

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