Living your purpose.

I started my new job on November 5th, and received lots of confirmations along the way that I was making the right decision to leave my marketing job of 17+ years.

I’m loving the opportunity to be in the fitness industry and part of the Anytime Fitness family.

There’s a lot to learn and every day presents new opportunities for that.

I am excited about the New Year and the potential for people to start their health and fitness journey with us.

I knew I would be happy signing people up for a gym membership, but had no idea how affected I could be by one person until today.

With her permission I’m sharing a post that she shared tonight in a private group that we both belong to. Nothing happens by chance:

“#StartingOver #Day1

So …. i did this thing today… i joined Anytime Fitness.

I decided that I needed to push thru all my anxiety and do something to benefit ME..

Anyone who doesn’t know my anxiety issues it truely is debilitating at times 😢 i took baby steps with the support of my friend.

I literally had to make each tiny thing an accomplishment.

Step 1 i submitted a form for information on their current special.

Step 2 i made the appointment.

Step 3 AND I RECOMMEND THIS TO EVERYONE….. research your health insurance bc mine offered discounts for joining.

Step 4 i walked through the door to a new place by myself (King Kuan can vouch this is a HUGE struggle for me)

Step 5 i signed up… and met a wonderful woman carol who showed me a full body workout I could do until my body assessment on Tuesday.

Step 6 i showed up this evening a got an awesome 1 hour workout in.

I have a lot of support but I realized i need professional help to get me out of my funk and back on my wagon.

So, tonight my journey begins again…

#icandothis #maketimeforme

I weighed myself this am at 212.6lbs. (That means i gained almost all the weight i lost last year)…. i did it before ill do it again.

#strongerthanmyexcuses
#lightenup”

I cried when I read this. I know that all things have come together, not by chance, for me to be living my purpose today.

My fitness journey that I began several years ago led to a passion for lifting weights and the gym.

The diagnosis of Rheumatoid Arthritis shook my foundation, but then led me to take the course to become a certified personal trainer in hopes of helping people with chronic pain and disease.

My own personal trainer/nutritionist told me about the owners of Bel Air Anytime Fitness and led me to put in an application there.

The owners interviewed me and told me they needed to hire a general manager. They have given me the most amazing opportunity and gift.

I am grateful. Because today the courage of one beautiful lady who walked through the gym doors has reafirmed that I’m truly living my purpose.

You never know what people are going through. Her story touched my heart. And I’m thankful to be part of her journey.

I was reading an article a while back about living your purpose. I am glad I saved it. Here’s 20 signs that you’re living your purpose. I know I am.

Here are 20 signs that you are living your purpose:

*1. You no longer have that nagging feeling that a big piece is missing in your life. You have found what makes you whole.

2. You have gone from being stuck to knowing that you are on a meaningful path that gives you true fulfillment.

3. Work brings joy instead of sucking energy out of your life.

4. You stopped doubting yourself. You feel confident and good about your choices.

5. Uncertainty, insecurity and worry are old patterns. You feel purposeful and know that the world needs you to be your best.

6. Instead of seeking clients, they are seeking you. Your business and income are flowing.

7. You no longer feel like you’re hiding part of who you are. You are authentic and true to your soul.

8. You are patient with yourself and your family because you are OK being certain with the uncertain. You trust that the next step will be given to you.

9. You’ve stopped looking for approval from those around you. You have found your voice, courage and confidence.

10. You feel comfortable selling your products or services because you know that people need you.

11. You stopped playing small and feel vibrant and alive. You have tapped into the knowing that you have so much to give.

12. You have become fearless. Your fears are now your best friends and they always point you toward the next step.

13. Frustration from not meeting your potential has vanished. You know you are meant to do great things and have so much love to share.

14. Change is no longer a fear. You have seen that change is what allows you to create a lifestyle that you love.

15. You invest in yourself and your business and the more you do so, the more others invest in your services.

16. You stopped struggling. You live your life passionately both personally and professionally.

17. You no longer feel like you are selling your soul for a paycheck. Your income and your purpose are in alignment.

18. The fear of what others might think of you has been replaced by the belief that people need your gifts and talents.

19. You finally stopped putting your life on hold and know you are living your destiny.

20. You have come to know that happiness is not only your right, but part of your life’s purpose.

*mindbodygreen/living your purpose

I encourage you all to seek your purpose and pursue it. It’s life changing.

We need a cure

A day in the life of someone with uncontrolled RA….Another rest day from the gym today. Something is going wrong. I stumbled getting out of bed this morning because the pain in my feet was so excruciating I couldn’t stand.

I pulled myself together and made my hair appointment then did the grocery shopping, and grabbed a few other items for Christmas. I can’t close my right hand, more fingers are affected, and my wrist is very weak today. Picking up packages of meat and other items was difficult.

I got home and put groceries away. Too tired to meal prep. Took a nap. Need to get my meals done but have no energy and it is hurting to be on my feet.

I have my new meds in the refrigerator but haven’t been trained to administer my injection. It’s not an automatic injector this time but a syringe. I’m super emotional because I want the autoimmune protocol diet to help me get into remission but on the other hand I want relief from the pain. I’m terrified of the meds and fight taking them. But when there is pain and inflammation permanent joint damage is taking place.

All of this after three great workouts in the gym this week. I know exercise and lifting weights is good for me so it’s even more frustrating when I can’t and my body calls the shots.

All of this is not for pity but to raise awareness. Arthritis research is seriously underfunded.

From 2013–2015, an estimated 54.4 million US adults (22.7%) annually had ever been told by a doctor that they had some form of arthritis, rheumatoid arthritis, gout, lupus, or fibromyalgia.
By 2040, an estimated 78 million (26%) US adults aged 18 years or older are projected to have doctor-diagnosed arthritis.

Arthritis and other rheumatic conditions are a leading cause of work disability among US adults.
In 2013, the national costs of arthritis were $304 billion overall.

  • Arthritis-attributable medical costs were $140 billion.
  • Arthritis-attributable lost wages were $164 billion.

Don’t ever take your health and ability to move for granted. Go do something every day and make it count!

#makeitcount #mic4d #rasucks #rheumatoidarthritis #curearthritis

Bump in the road

I’ve put off writing as if not putting the words out here would change what is happening.

I still believe that my disease was in a state of remission, and I do believe that I will achieve it again. When I saw my rheumatologist back in September I had no symptoms of my disease and my inflammation markers were normal. I had experienced no pain since July and didn’t start having any symptoms until the middle of October. My doctor said remission could be months or could last for years. And I said that I would ride this wave as long as I could.

I have been trying to ignore the signs but as they increase it’s become difficult.

Maybe my body held out through all the stress of bringing my oldest daughter home from Colorado, my son going to boot camp, and my youngest daughter starting high school and now it’s at a point where it can’t do it anymore.

I need to see the positives as doing anything else would take me down a rabbit hole that I have no intention of going down.

A huge positive is that I’ve started a new job which I firmly believe is a gift. Being in a place of health and fitness where I can encourage others is my heart and passion. I’m grateful every day for this opportunity.

Even though it’s painful to walk right now I’m thankful that I have legs to do so. Even though my hands are swollen, and small every day tasks hurt I’m grateful that I can still grab the weights after work, push through a workout, and get a little reprieve from the pain when I’m done. Even though the fatigue is draining, I am energized at work and know that I can make a difference to others who suffer more than I do.

I need to remember that I must listen to my body and rest when I need to.

So for now I am waiting for our insurance to approve the next therapy and I’ll begin taking meds to slow down the disease progression.

This is just a bump in the road. #makeitcount #rasucks #rheumatoidarthritis

Keep going

Lots going on lately…

I passed my exam to become a certified personal trainer and I’m still really excited about it. Formed an LLC and as soon as I get insurance I’ll be good to go to work with people. My first pieces of equipment came in and that’s pretty cool.

As for RA….well it’s kicking my butt lately. I’ve been off Xeljanz since mid May. I did 20 days on prednisone which gave some temporary relief. But now the all too familiar symptoms are back.

I started Humira on June 15th and I’m hopeful that it will work.

After 4 months on a ketogenic diet and no impact on my pain and inflammation I’m back to a “regular” diet. I’m happy with my strength gains in the gym despite the pain.

My earth angel Dani continues to be my beautiful inspiration and I’m so thankful for her love and friendship even over the many miles that separate us.

For now I will continue to move and be patient with myself when my body does not cooperate.

#makeitcount

Finding my voice

I don’t write these posts for sympathy or accolades. I write for my own therapy, the hope that I’ll gain new insights, and maybe help others that are suffering in silence.

I’m finding my voice. And in finding my voice, I’m also learning to let people in.

A lot has been going on physically that has changed me. Some ways for the better and some not. I’m dealing with bouts of depression, and that is new to me. I’ve always picked myself up and done what needs to be done when I felt down.

That’s not working for me any more.

Admitting that I’m feeling overwhelmed and depressed is hard for me.

I’m finding my voice and I’m finding strength from the support of people that I’m letting into my world. That is also new to me. In my adult life I’ve always had many aquaintances but very few true friends that I’ve allowed to get close.

I’ve always been the strong one. Determined. Persistent. The fixer. I’m realizing that it’s ok to admit that some days I’m not any of these things at all.

So, for the ones that I’ve let in that are sharing their experiences and insights, and not judging my perceived weaknesses…thank you.