Familiar pain

On June 19, 2020 it was one year since I stopped all my meds.

I have managed my disease naturally and as well as if I were on medications for 8 and a half months of that year.

It’s a bit disheartening to feel the amount of pain that I’m experiencing the last few days, but I can’t let that feeling take over.

I managed a workout tonight that was not as great as I’m used to. I’m weak. But as in the past I dug deep and got it done. And as in the past I had a few hours of pain relief.

I believe I’ll be able to get this back under control.

I believe I’m still on the right path. This journey is not linear and never will be.

Don’t ever take your health or ability to move without pain for granted.

Lost some muscle in the past month or so.
Always symmetrical but right hand is typically worse.

Fear

I’m 3 months into the autoimmune protocol diet. The knowledge of food allergies has helped me fine tune my eating even more. I added back two food groups and will be tweaking to determine if they’re inflammatory. My pain is coming back to levels I haven’t been having, and with the pain comes fear.

I’m afraid of how bad the pain gets. I’m afraid of the medications and their side effects. But more than that I’m afraid of losing my mobility.

I’ve been off the Kevzara for a month trying to rule out an allergic reaction. I’m trying to decide along with my rheumatologist if I will try it again or go on to the next step.

My prescription vitamin blend came in and I’ve been taking it for two weeks. I’m hopeful that they will be absorbed by my body and begin to help. We’ll do some blood tests in 3 months to see.

Healing my gut and my body will take time, patience, and persistence. I know that all the damage was not done overnight and will not go away overnight.

In the meantime I continue to move and strengthen my body and I am thankful that I can.