Fear

I’m 3 months into the autoimmune protocol diet. The knowledge of food allergies has helped me fine tune my eating even more. I added back two food groups and will be tweaking to determine if they’re inflammatory. My pain is coming back to levels I haven’t been having, and with the pain comes fear.

I’m afraid of how bad the pain gets. I’m afraid of the medications and their side effects. But more than that I’m afraid of losing my mobility.

I’ve been off the Kevzara for a month trying to rule out an allergic reaction. I’m trying to decide along with my rheumatologist if I will try it again or go on to the next step.

My prescription vitamin blend came in and I’ve been taking it for two weeks. I’m hopeful that they will be absorbed by my body and begin to help. We’ll do some blood tests in 3 months to see.

Healing my gut and my body will take time, patience, and persistence. I know that all the damage was not done overnight and will not go away overnight.

In the meantime I continue to move and strengthen my body and I am thankful that I can.

DNA, food allergies and vitamin deficiencies.

Before the end of the year I had a bunch of bloodwork done which included DNA testing, standard tests such as cholesterol; and hormone, vitamin, and allergy tests.

I got all the test results back last week. I believe all the information I now have will help me in the treatment of my disease.

The DNA results are interesting. I have information that can be given to my rheumatologist as well as other doctors to help make decisions about medications based on my genes.

I found that I have two food allergies. I am allergic to milk and egg whites. In the past month or so I eliminated both milk and eggs on the autoimmune protocol diet (AIP diet) so keeping them out of my diet permanently should be fairly easy.

I did some reading about milk and egg allergies and how they manifest, and there is some evidence that they can cause an autoimmune response. So hopefully keeping them out of my diet will settle my immune system down some.

My vitamin levels are out of balance as well which is not uncommon in RA patients. My vitamin D is very low, as is my vitamin A, and my vitamin C level was almost nonexistent. I couldn’t believe it because not only do I eat copious amounts of fresh vegetables and fruits, but am religious about taking my vitamins and supplements. Thanks RA for yet another fun aspect of the disease.

I’ll be starting a prescription vitamin blend based on my needs and genetic make up. So my levels will be brought to the best level for me not the broad government standards. It will also have a substance to help me absorb them since my body is not doing it well enough on its own.

Once my vitamin D, C, and A are brought up my hormones and other levels should become balanced and I should feel a lot better!

I’ve stayed on the AIP diet through the elimination phase and just added legumes/beans back to see how my body responds.

I also have a call into my rheumatologist because I believe I had a reaction to the last Kevzara injection I did on Tuesday. I’ve had similar site reactions like I did with Humira, and had a significant rash/hives within 24 hours of the last injection.

We’ll see if she wants me to continue treatment or hold off. I would be willing to take a break from meds and pursue the AIP diet knowing that the 2 food allergies could have been impacting me greatly.

I still believe remission is possible and that my body has the ability to heal and be well.

I’m definitely persistent enough to keep trying.

AIP meal prep

Staying on the AIP diet so the long process of gut healing can continue. Being on an extremely strict diet is tough but I’ve found it’s getting easier. But I have to be prepared.

Sunday is my meal prep day. Lunches and dinners are easy. Grass fed, grass finished beef and wild caught seafood with copious amounts of vegetables. I drink kombucha daily and snack on fruits. Breakfast has been the challenge with no grains, dairy or eggs involved. Thank God for Pinterest!

This week my meals are looking good.

I made a bunch of AIP compliant veggies in my wok and roasted some sweet potatoes in the oven. I have some grass fed, grass finished Kobe beef hot dogs for a few meals, and cooked a grass fed, grass finished porterhouse steak in a cast iron pan in the oven.

I eat some kind of seafood every day. This week is wild caught salmon and wild caught tuna to go with either spaghetti squash or sauteed spinach.

Lunches and dinners are packed full of vitamins. I buy organic veggies whenever possible too.

After getting all that finished I moved on to breakfasts. I tried two different recipes this week. I opted for Tostones (fried plantains) and pumpkin spice macaroons made with dates, pumpkin puree, and shredded coconut.

I can assure you these are both delicious!

So the journey to heal my gut and balance my immune system in hopes of remission continues. And the best part is that I’m not feeling deprived and I’m eating nutritionally sound food.

Don’t take your health for granted.

Living your purpose.

I started my new job on November 5th, and received lots of confirmations along the way that I was making the right decision to leave my marketing job of 17+ years.

I’m loving the opportunity to be in the fitness industry and part of the Anytime Fitness family.

There’s a lot to learn and every day presents new opportunities for that.

I am excited about the New Year and the potential for people to start their health and fitness journey with us.

I knew I would be happy signing people up for a gym membership, but had no idea how affected I could be by one person until today.

With her permission I’m sharing a post that she shared tonight in a private group that we both belong to. Nothing happens by chance:

“#StartingOver #Day1

So …. i did this thing today… i joined Anytime Fitness.

I decided that I needed to push thru all my anxiety and do something to benefit ME..

Anyone who doesn’t know my anxiety issues it truely is debilitating at times 😢 i took baby steps with the support of my friend.

I literally had to make each tiny thing an accomplishment.

Step 1 i submitted a form for information on their current special.

Step 2 i made the appointment.

Step 3 AND I RECOMMEND THIS TO EVERYONE….. research your health insurance bc mine offered discounts for joining.

Step 4 i walked through the door to a new place by myself (King Kuan can vouch this is a HUGE struggle for me)

Step 5 i signed up… and met a wonderful woman carol who showed me a full body workout I could do until my body assessment on Tuesday.

Step 6 i showed up this evening a got an awesome 1 hour workout in.

I have a lot of support but I realized i need professional help to get me out of my funk and back on my wagon.

So, tonight my journey begins again…

#icandothis #maketimeforme

I weighed myself this am at 212.6lbs. (That means i gained almost all the weight i lost last year)…. i did it before ill do it again.

#strongerthanmyexcuses
#lightenup”

I cried when I read this. I know that all things have come together, not by chance, for me to be living my purpose today.

My fitness journey that I began several years ago led to a passion for lifting weights and the gym.

The diagnosis of Rheumatoid Arthritis shook my foundation, but then led me to take the course to become a certified personal trainer in hopes of helping people with chronic pain and disease.

My own personal trainer/nutritionist told me about the owners of Bel Air Anytime Fitness and led me to put in an application there.

The owners interviewed me and told me they needed to hire a general manager. They have given me the most amazing opportunity and gift.

I am grateful. Because today the courage of one beautiful lady who walked through the gym doors has reafirmed that I’m truly living my purpose.

You never know what people are going through. Her story touched my heart. And I’m thankful to be part of her journey.

I was reading an article a while back about living your purpose. I am glad I saved it. Here’s 20 signs that you’re living your purpose. I know I am.

Here are 20 signs that you are living your purpose:

*1. You no longer have that nagging feeling that a big piece is missing in your life. You have found what makes you whole.

2. You have gone from being stuck to knowing that you are on a meaningful path that gives you true fulfillment.

3. Work brings joy instead of sucking energy out of your life.

4. You stopped doubting yourself. You feel confident and good about your choices.

5. Uncertainty, insecurity and worry are old patterns. You feel purposeful and know that the world needs you to be your best.

6. Instead of seeking clients, they are seeking you. Your business and income are flowing.

7. You no longer feel like you’re hiding part of who you are. You are authentic and true to your soul.

8. You are patient with yourself and your family because you are OK being certain with the uncertain. You trust that the next step will be given to you.

9. You’ve stopped looking for approval from those around you. You have found your voice, courage and confidence.

10. You feel comfortable selling your products or services because you know that people need you.

11. You stopped playing small and feel vibrant and alive. You have tapped into the knowing that you have so much to give.

12. You have become fearless. Your fears are now your best friends and they always point you toward the next step.

13. Frustration from not meeting your potential has vanished. You know you are meant to do great things and have so much love to share.

14. Change is no longer a fear. You have seen that change is what allows you to create a lifestyle that you love.

15. You invest in yourself and your business and the more you do so, the more others invest in your services.

16. You stopped struggling. You live your life passionately both personally and professionally.

17. You no longer feel like you are selling your soul for a paycheck. Your income and your purpose are in alignment.

18. The fear of what others might think of you has been replaced by the belief that people need your gifts and talents.

19. You finally stopped putting your life on hold and know you are living your destiny.

20. You have come to know that happiness is not only your right, but part of your life’s purpose.

*mindbodygreen/living your purpose

I encourage you all to seek your purpose and pursue it. It’s life changing.